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Name: Andy
Country: Canada
Birthday: 5/13/1984
Gender: Male
Interests: Laughing with you, smiling with you, waiting with you, hoping with you, wishing with you, dancing with you, just being with you...
Expertise: Comforting you, crying with you, sighing with you, talking with you, needing you...
Occupation: Consulting
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message me
Member Since:
6/12/2002
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| F5's 2007:
Let's first take a look back at the resolutions of my 2006 year. I promise I'll get into more detail with my 2007 plans later, for those around that still read my blog. I'm sure I've decimated everyone by now.
2006 Resolutions:
1) I will gain weight to be at around 165 lbs. -> Accomplished, current weight 173 lbs
2) I will find another job, business related, non-entertainment. -> Accomplished, employed at Scotiabank, though hating it.
3) I will take the G-G-GMAT. -> Accomplished, and received a decent mark, hopefully I can get into a good university.
4) I will pay closer attention to the close friends that I have. -> Semi-Accomplished, I have narrowed down my friend list, but more on that later.
5) I will make you stop smoking. -> Accomplished, self-explanatory
6) Most importantly, I will do my best to take one step closer to becoming something that you NEED. -> Accomplished, to a certain extent.
Ok, so now what do I have planned for 2007? It's rather easy this year. Not as many goals to accomplish, but the ones I want to achieve really have some sort of meaning to me.
2007 Resolutions:
1) Get into a university to start working towards my MBA.
-Again, this is a self explanatory goal. Everyone out there starts at an even playing field, at least I believe so, it's those who make the most of it who achieve greatness, or at least achieve something above the norm. For me, my ambition begins with gaining an advantage, and that advantage would be an MBA.
2) Finish my screenplays.
-For those of you who don't know, I have a keen interest in writing. I've written in the past, but recently, I've struggled to keep up with my projects. Every now and then stories pop into my head, but I never have the motivation to finish anything. Hopefully by this time next year, I'll be able to list some o f the scripts, novels and others that I've been able to pen in.
3) Go on a trip with you.
-Last year, we went to Las Vegas together and we had the time of our lives. This time, for a longer period of time, we may head off to Asia together, possibly. I'm not too sure on how the scheduling will work, but again, this is all in the air, especially with a hockey team on the way and an MBA to be earned.
4) Win a Roller Hockey Championship.
Yes, for reals. I am the captain of a roller hockey team and in our first year, we're going to do the unthinkable... Win a championship. The odds are definitely against us, considering a good quarter of my team doesn't know how to skate and 90% of us has never played in a league before. We're all rookies, but hopefully we can pull some miracles. If we don't win, at least we're going to try our asses off. This is my promise to my teammates, we may put ourselves through hell for the next few months, but I promise you, each of you will accomplish something that you can hold true to your hearts. You helped build this team and you will help create its ultimate outcome.
5) Be Better to my Friends.
I will admit first off that the whole closing off idea was a failure. I miss you guys more than anything, but I guess I can't really help it when I've turned myself into a "two-person world." Yeah, I know, I still randomly spurt out things on MSN, but I feel like I've missed so much in so many people's lives. You guys were what made me who I am today and without you, I'd be nothing. I wrote this once, but "your enemies are what breaks you, your parents are what grows you, but your friends, they're what shapes you." I owe apologies to a lot of people for vanishing off the face of the earth, and I'm sure you all know who you are. I'm sorry. I know an apology on Xanga doesn't cut it, but I'm going to start working hard at this. We may never all be as close as we once were, but I'm going to try. You can't fault a man for that.
I guess that's pretty much it. I miss a lot of people in my life and I'm sorry if I've disappeared from you. I don't have any excuses for what I do and nor should I. But I'm going to try to fix it.
2007 - The Preview:
This is essentially the year that will make or break my life. I am on a venture on my own, perhaps I'll wind up in Alberta, perhaps I'll stay in Vancouver. Whatever happens is up to fate, or some sort of combination of free will and pre-destiny. I don't know, it's all very complicated. Anyways, the point is, I have a few tough decisions to make. I don't know where I'll be. I don't know where the other half of my life will be. I don't where we'll wind up being. But someday, when we wake up from the next 2-3 years, we'll wake up in each other's arms. I may have to fight everything out alone, or I might have to fight it out with the help of all my friends, or what's left. I don't know. This is a dark path that I'm going to follow, but I am stronger and wiser.
This is the first step towards my real life... believe me... It's going to be a hell of a ride.
-Andy
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| I know I haven't been around my Xanga in a while now, but that doesn't mean I take you all forgranted. Damn Xanga has a lot of weird functions now that I'll probably never touch again. Back in my day (cough cough), all we had was Bold, Italics and Underline and that's the way we liked it. Now we have all these fancy things like pictures and smileys and the ability to change font without any HTML coding? Wow! What about all those people who paid for Xanga premium? What about them?! Anyways, as a little token of my appreciation and to all those I've promised that I would update my site for, I decided we'll let all your opinions shine through! Here goes... I want anyone or everyone or anything that scans through my site to leave a comment with the GREATEST LOVE SONG LYRIC OF ALL TIME! I don't care if it's heavy metal, gangster rap (they see me rollin'!) or boyband pop, I just want to see what everyone has in their minds. It doesn't even have to be a great lyric, it can be something you heard on the radio today! IT DOESN'T EVEN HAVE TO BE THE WHOLE SONG! Anyways, post away and we'll see if we can pick a winner at the end of this whole debacle. Let me get the ball rollinnnnnnn... Lonestar - Amazed
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you
The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time, every time
I want to spend the whole night in your eyes. Vanessa Williams - Save the Best for Last
All of the nights you came to me
When some silly girl had set you free
You wondered how you'd make it through
I wondered what was wrong with you
'Cause how could you give your love to someone else
And share your dreams with me
Sometimes the very thing you're looking for
Is the one thing you can't see
And now we're standing face to face
Isn't this world a crazy place
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last
Aerosmith - I Don't Want to Miss a Thing
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing,
Watch you smile while you are sleeping,
While you are far away and dreaming,
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender,
I could stay lost in this moment forever,
Where a moment spent with you is a moment I treasure, I don't want to close my eyes, I don't want to fall asleep,
Cause I miss you baby, And I don't want to miss a thing,
Cause even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do,
I still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing Bette Midler - Wind Beneath My Wings
It must have been cold there in my shadow,
to never have sunlight on your face.
You were content to let me shine, that's your way,
you always walked a step behind. So I was the one with all the glory,
while you were the one with all the strength.
A beautiful face without a name -- for so long,
a beautiful smile to hide the pain. Did you ever know that you're my hero,
and ev'rything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings. It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
but I've got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it,
I would be nothing with out you. Bryan Adams - (Everything I do) I do it For You
Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you
Look into your heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all - I would sacrifice Darren Hayes - I Miss You
Why I'm feeling so blue
Everytime I close my eyes, all I see is you
Gimme a reason
Why I can't feel my heart
Everytime you leave my side, I just fall apart
And when you're fast asleep, I wonder where you go
Can you tell me, I wanna know
Because I miss you
And this is all I wanna say
I guess I miss you, beautiful
These three words have said it all
You know I miss you
I think about you when you're gone
I guess I miss you, nothing's wrong
I don't need to carry on
You got a way of spreading magic everywhere
Anywhere I go, I know you're always there
It sounds ridiculous, but when you leave a room
There's a part of me that just wants to follow you too Alright, that should be more than enough material to get everyone started! Let the hunt begin! | | |
| This is a promise I will make you. I will not let you down. I will learn. I will work. I will breathe. I will live. I will wait.
I will give anything, but I won't give up.
I love you.
I loved you all along.
...
And then, we will never have to go.
I love you.
I loved you all along.
I will always love you.
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| Happy Valentine's Day Everyone!
Not much of an update from me - at least in respect to words. I've been
absolutely dead tired these past few days, work is getting to me, but
the money is good so I can't really complain... much.
Ok, to make everyone jealous... Behold... the greatest Valentine's Day present of all time...
That's right... I choo-choo-choose you!
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| F5's Thoughts on Xanga...
I'm serious, I think a lot of people are missing the point on things...
Xanga is an incredibly versatile tool, if you know how to use it. For
example, it's not like I memorized my New Year's resolutions from 2005,
but I posted them online - so I can always check back for reference. Of
course, I must admit it was purely accidental that I wound up
succeeding in finishing them.
F5's Job!
Well that didn't take too long. You know,
I've only been home for about 3 weeks. I know, it doesn't feel like I
left at all. Some of my friends are still wondering, "dude, I haven't
seen you for a while, where have you been?" or my personal fave, "damn!
whatchu been up to these days?" Anyways, I am officially employed,
which means the spending craze will start again. I promised my mom that
I'd put half my paycheque in my bank account and the other half will be
used to pay bills and whatever meaningful purchases I may have. Just in
case I get the temptation to spend more, I've given my girlfriend the
bank card so only she can access it. So, my budget is set, hopefully I
get a promotion soon because I need the money badly.
I work at ScotiaBank and the irony of it all is that I'm specializing
in the asian language speaking department. Which means my whole "I left
Taiwan because I can't stand it" argument is thrown out the window
because I'm back in the asian section. The worse thing is that most
people speak Cantonese. Those of you know me, know that my
Cantonese is not up to par, in fact, my Cantonese is the equivalent of
a parrot, I only know a few phrases and use them constantly. Anyways,
the point is, hopefully this job will increase my language ability and
FINALLY I will be fluent in Cantonese after... what... 5 years of
learning and countless Hong Kong girlfr... let's leave that one blank.
Fundamentals of F5: Who Can Say They're in Love?
I started thinking about some things
a few days ago and you know how it is - if you start thinking, you
never really stop. One of my friends called me on the phone and I just
realized, there are a lot of people who need to be educated on lots of
things - including myself. I will admit right now, straight up, I am a
jerk... an absolute ass. Just ask some of my friends, I'm pretty sure
they'd say, "yeah, he is crude at times" even my girlfriend will admit
that I'm a jerk.
I think this is where hindsight kind of comes into this situation. I am
a jerk, absolutely no way around it. I was never an undisputed good
person, despite what some of the most loyal of friends would say, but
you know what? She makes me
great. That's how it works. I might never have been good, but she made
me great. I listened to a lot of the situations from my friends. Since
I've come back, I think a lot of my friends are relieved because they
have a phone buddy again. Sadly, that's not the case, as, not being
single carries a responsibility. Anyways, from the stories that I've
heard, I really have a few conclusions to draw. I know it's hard to
believe that these things can actually happen, but I can attest to them.
Firstly, let's start with some of the things a guy should know straight
up, then we'll talk about what everyone should know. Every girl handles
their monthly PMS differently. Some girls have huge mood swings, some
have cramps, some have nothing at all. If your girlfriend is the type
that has heightened emotions or something, attend to her, don't ignore
her and especially don't comment on it. The worst thing you can say is,
"I wish you don't get your period." You don't think that thought has
ever come across some girl's mind? Nextly, if your girl gets cramps,
please please please, do not be stupid and make her come out and
snowboard with you or something. Again, attend to her, and get her
something warm to put on her abdominal area. You can be sweet too and
hug her while holding the warm pack and wrapping her up in a blanket.
The two of you can spend a few hours watching TV and just talking. I
mean, if you don't enjoy talking to your significant other, then why
the hell are you in a relationship to begin with? I'm serious about
this next one too... Everyone should know that I like to think of
ridiculously sweet things to say, but you know what? When I'm with her,
I can't say any of them. I become tongue-tied. The once ultra-smooth F5
becomes nothing more than a broken down record. You know what though?
It's okay... sometimes the best words were the words that couldn't be
said. Let your actions do the talking. Okay, the last fact to remember
here is, not ALL relationships are equal. Everyone knows that the
relationship works more like, someone likes/loves the other more.
However, I plan to prove this fact wrong. If you love your
girlfriend/boyfriend, I mean REALLY love them, it wouldn't matter what
the percentages are. In fact, if in reality the relationship was 80%
guy and 20% girl, who cares? If that 20% feels like 100 to you, then
who cares? Yes, another thing to remember, someone loving you with 10%
could be equivalent to someone else's 100% or vice versa. Hence,
numbers mean absolutely nothing, it's all about feeling.
Now the last and most important fact anyone should know is this...
Things should NEVER EVER feel like an effort for you. Never complain
about anything, because if you truly loved someone, you wouldn't care
how much time or work you had to spend. Never say things like "I spent
5 days straight making that for you," because guilt cards don't work.
People know if you put a lot of effort into things just by the end
result, so never use a guilt card. If you do make something and it
looks like a piece of crap, who cares! Your significant other will know
whether or not you put effort into it, because I'm sure they know your
strengths and weaknesses. If you have to tell them you took a long time
to do it, then you probably should have worked harder. Like I said,
they can tell when you've put forward some effort or not. If you have
to wait on a bus for 1.5 hours just so you can see your girlfriend at
work for 5 minutes, those 5 minutes of seeing her is worth it if you
truly love them. Nothing should ever feel like you're exerting a lot of
effort, because you will get tired very very quickly. Bottom line,
never treat anything like it requires effort, but rather, you'd want to
do it because of who you're with and who you can be with.
Get it? Got it? Good.
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